Ok, I'm depressed

I am having a bad day today. I couldn't sleep last night and kept tossing and turning all night. I've packed almost the whole house but I still have over a week before I even move. I've finished my quilt that I started BEFORE leaving Calgary and now I have nothing to do.

I can't find a job when I'm stuck out in Winnipeg as I have to be in Calgary. I do have a telephone interview with Telus tomorrow night.

I can't find a place in Calgary as I have to be out there to do that. The listings over the internet just aren't enough. I can't buy a place or get a mortgage without a job.

Jacki & Dana keep telling me about goings on at work and it makes me even more depressed that the 8 months I spent out here and things have gone back to the way they were.

I did see an awesome purse yesterday but I can't afford it.

What a difference a day makes

Ok these "people" who make up these says are getting to me. Thursday I was bummed and unhappy, Friday I was still bummed until I SOLD MY HOUSE! Yahoo! That was a big worry on my shoulders and you all know I don't worry - RIGHT!

Interesting day yesterday. I went in about 10:30ish and the Senior VP was in a meeting with the guy who quit being the Field Manager after a few days. So I went to speak with the controller. We chatted, I handed in my keys and the SVP was finally out of the meeting. I went and saw him, he was kinda of a jerk but I expected that. I went to field gathered my bag and shoes (I'd cleaned my stuff out of there in the beginning of the month). It was really sad saying goodbye to the HR Manager I hired, few staff and the desktop guy who has been really, really helpful and just an amazing guy.

Jacki & I left and I helped her with her stores. Ok I walked behind her shopping while she checked on her vendor lines. I then get a call on my cell, it's the HR Manager (most of you will see what is coming). Guess what, yup their fired her. Said she wasn't a right fit and I left them with no indication that she was going to work there after I left. Bold face lie! I specifically said to the SVP just hours ago that she is awesome and the company would be stupid to lose her. She has done so much in such a little time and helped me out it is truly amazing. I told him that she was going to stick it out as I told her things were going to get better. See what I have had to deal with in the past 8 months!!?!?!?!

I then heard later in the afternoon as she found out from staff who have been calling her, that one of the old pre-merger supervisors is the new field manager. What a mistake this is. First he knows absolutely nothing, is a liar, drinks heavily (was in the crowd of staff who was fired for smoking pot at work, but couldn't substantiate it) and no one respects him. I called it. My email to the President and Chairman had stated that he was saying he was going to be the field manager and that I didn't trust him and no one else did (nor liked him).

That place is going down fast. I feel sorry for the good staff (interviewers and supervisors) who are left and for the Project Directors in Vancouver (as their work will not get done).

My only hope is that the Chairman who talked with me doesn't know what is going on or that he lied to me. Or if he lied to me, he is letting Winnipeg hang themselves so he can pull out of the company.

My money is that Jacki will be walked out Monday (not Sunday because they have no one to work it). Also everyone that the HR Manager and I hired will be gone within two weeks.

Adios assholes!

I'm outta here

Well the day came. I was frustrated with what is going on with their games so I let them have it. I spoke with the senior VP whom I report too, stating my concerns and wanting to let him know that I most likely won't be able to get everything I wanted done before I left. He left me feeling like I just talked to a wall, so I followed up with an email to the President and Chairman.

The Chairman called me later this afternoon and wanted to call me at home as the walls seem to have ears. Guess I spoke my mind too much as the Chairman said what I knew he was going to say. Basically tomorrow is my last day. After I drop my keys off and say goodbye, I'm unemployed.

I have mixed feelings about this as the deal on the house fell through (they couldn't get approval from CHMC), so it is back up on the market. Normally in Winnipeg if the house doesn't sell in a week, people won't want to see it. Now I have something else to worry about - just lovely.

What would happen if I torch the *&*&#$? Could I get the money and then leave? I want out of this goD forsaken town so bad it isn't funny.

I'm sad that I won't get to say goodbye to the people in Vancouver, but I have their emails so will send them a note.

The Chairman did mention that it wasn't my fault and that if I needed a reference he would definitely say nothing but positive things.

I'm kinda depressed as I feel sorry for the good people who I tried to help and helped me turn the field centre around. I'm bummed and don't know what else to say.

Belated birthday, Guam shift

First I have to say BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dearest sister Jacki. Yesterday was her birthday and I was gonna surprise her at work with supper, but plans in the city just don't work out. I owe her big time and have to come up with something HUGE to make up for it.

Yesterday was a day from hell. With my departure (if I make it), the President is being really nice but annoying. He is also spending more time trying to figure out what I've done wrong and how I've screwed the company, thus causing me more grief. I had one supervisor say to him that all the problems we are currently having the payroll issues for the interviewers is my fault. Nice. This is the same supervisor who walked out of the shift saying he was done and wouldn't help others wrap things up.

So I had to start looking at payroll discrepancies from January! This just made my day. I don't have enough time to even go to the washroom, let alone take on another task. But it is expected of me. I was at work late last night and the supervisor who was to work the Guam shift (11 pm to 5 am) came in stoned. Lovely, just (*&)@#$ lovely. So I had to fire his ass and run the shift as I could not get anyone else to run the shift with no notice. I started looking into things and he didn't do anything that was required of him, which made me more pissed off then I already was. He never kept track of the taxi vouchers, so I am deducting all the missing information from his final pay.

Thank goD for Jacki as she came and helped me figure things out. I'm exhausted today and not going into work. I don't know what it is about my personality but even though I have resigned and am giving them 4 weeks, I really care that things get done properly while I'm here. I know I shouldn't take on this burden as no one helped me before but I don't know how not to. I'm pissed and worried at the same time. Moving home with no job or house doesn't help either.

The house is conditionally sold - they have until Friday to get financing. I think that's all the news I have for now. I'm gonna go take a nap.

Oh ya! Mom & dad are moving into town in May, so I was helping mom go through some of her "stuff". We came to a lot of knitting that is half done. So if there are any knitters out there who can finish some of these projects off, please contact me. I also found a lot of buffalo wool and would really like to have a sweater made. Send me an email or update my blog and we can get in touch and start this going!

Thelma and Louise

Well I thought I caught up on a little of the lack of sleep from this weekend, but last night didn't help. Let me tell you about the adventure.

Dana, Snoopy, Cali & I left Winnipeg Friday evening around 6 pm. We girls were heading West - to the land of sanity, family and friends. I had thought (actually mom suggested it) that we should send the girls out while the house is being shown so I don't have to worry about them during the showings. So us girls filled Dana's car and headed to Calgary. We were doing good - the roads were clear, we were upbeat and ready to get away from Winnipeg and the hell.

Roads in Manitoba weren't bad. They were actually the best part of the trip. We did get stopped by a cop who says Dana was speeding but she wasn't. He was just being a jerk as he slammed on his breaks and pulled out in front of us before we passed him. Dana wasn't doing anything wrong nor was she going that fast. If I was driving I would have surely gotten a speeding ticket.

So on we go. Gas up in Brandon and heading into lovely Saskatchewan. Ok for those who have driven the prairies know I'm lying. The weather starts to change on the East side of Regina. It is snowing and the roads are getting yucky. Fearless, we push on after a pit stop and let the girls have a pee. The nice gas jockey in Regina told us to be safe and helped with the repair of Dana's broken nail. The only mishap so far on the journey.

We continue on Westward bound and the roads are getting worse. At Moose Jaw, exciting city of the prairies, I ask Dana if she is ok on continuing. I was getting worried as I didn't want to get in an accident and was prepared to stay overnight. She indicated she was ok so we continued.

Then it happened. Important note to all travellers going either west or eastbound between Moose Jaw and Swift Current. Dana really had to go pee. I thought she was going to wet herself so I tried convincing her to pull over and get the job done. She tried and I really have to give kudos to her but she got performance anxiety. She just couldn't do it. Even after I found liquid soap, paper towel, kleenex and sanitizing lotion. She hopped back into the car and we continued on.

I being the valuable co-pilot that I am, looked on our trusty map and saw that a town - Morse - was coming up next. We looked for a gas station - nothing. We looked for a restaurant - nothing so we pulled up to the only motel in town. It was about 3 am in the morning. Dana went in and asked the owner if she could use their bathroom. The jerk said NO. She asked if there was anyplace else in town and he told her to find out for herself. If I had to go, I would have peed on his carpet right then and there.

We continue on, next town - Herbert. Again keen eyes are out trying to locate a gas station, restaurant - anything. We even drove down the main street but found nothing, so we headed back out to the highway. It happened again - we got pulled over by cop #2. He was shocked that we were driving around Herbert but when we asked him if there was a restroom in town, he laughed and said good luck. He then proceeded to say find a dark corner (nice safe police) and do our business there. Dana stressed that she tried that, but to no avail. He suggested that we try this motel in town so we did.

Dana woke the reluctant motel owner and she was able to get a room key to use the bathroom. While she was doing her business, the cop came by and chatted me up. He was lonely - poor guy - and wanted someone to talk with. Then the motel owner saw him, called him over and gave him shit for him suggesting we stop in.

WHAT A HORRIBLE STRETCH OF THE ROAD. PEOPLE ARE SO IGNORANT!

We continued on and stopped off in lovely, friendly Medicine Hat. Here both us girls did our business and we took the girls for a walk as both Dana and I were exhausted and trying to stay awake. I'm amazed Dana drove all the way as I would not have been able to.

The roads were bad, but we finally made it home to mom & dads with no further issues or stops with the police. I dedicate this to Adam one of the Senior VPs who I've worked with in the past two years for causing all this to happen. He was the one who called us Thelma & Louise, thus put the curse on us.

We got to mom & dad's about 9:30 am had some breakfast and went to bed. I didn't sleep well as I was excited to be home and dreading the thought of having to leave at 6 am Sunday. Luckily (or not) the weather wasn't the greatest and we didn't drive home Sunday. Instead we took the first plane to Winnipeg Monday morning and went straight to work. Monday night I went home and went straight to bed.

Momma - I'm coming home.

Well this week has been very eventful. It is my first full week back from holidays and I only lasted 3 days at work before I got sworn at by the President. I came back rested and ready to get things in order when this happened. I also heard from my HR manager that he was a complete asshole and treated her like shit, making her cry and think she wasn't doing her job. Also asking her operations questions when she would not have any clue as to what was going on or how to answer. So with that, I handed in my resignation.

I dropped my letter off on the Senior Vice President's desk early Thursday morning and then emailed a copy to all stakeholders in the organization. I didn't hear anything until about 10 am when the Senior VP called and wanted to talk about it. He knows that I'm in the building with the call centre and sharing an office with two other people - HR manager & new Field manager, so I don't know why he wanted to talk over the phone (stupid). So I told him I would meet him later in the morning - I made him sweat a little first.

So I met with him and the first thing he asked (since I report to him), was it him? What an asshole. I told him not necessarily. I then went into the fact that I do not let any of my staff to be yelled at or sworn at over the phone and I had enough of it myself. I then told him that I still felt like an outsider (have always felt that way) and other various issues that made me come to the conclusion. He actually shook my hand and said good job for quitting.

The only other person I heard from was the Senior VP in Vancouver who had hired me when it was Nordic. He indicated he was very concerned with operations, asked if I was really going and when I told him yes, he asked if I was going to be ok. I was truthful to him as he has been a great ali and friend, stating that I was moving back to Calgary and I didn't know what I was going to do.

Late Thursday, the President called me asking for a meeting as he was coming back in town on Friday. I agreed, but didn't really want to go.

Thursday night the house was put on the market. The realtor I'm using is fantastic and completely crazy, but he is the #1 realtor in all of Manitoba so I'm not worried. The only thing he suggested that I do is tear up the carpets and clean the hardwood floors, so that is what I am going to do. Actually Jacki has started and we just have 3 rooms to take the carpet up and then we can clean the floors and put some oil on - then we are done. He is also getting a guy to come and do a 360 degree shoot of the rooms to put on the web, etc. My house has gone up about $10K since I bought it 7 months ago, so I'm hoping to get a bidding war and make some cash. This will be helpful since I don't have a job after the end of March and am moving back to Calgary with no place to live.

I met with the President today. He is such an ass. He indicated that he was sorry the way he treated me, but his kids are grown up and they have survived him. Nice, real nice. He also indicated that it wasn't anything personal and he said that if I wanted to reconsider I could but would have to let him know by Monday. Ya right - KISS MY ASS.

I think the next 4 weeks are going to drag on and I might become postal by March 31st. Just an observation.

Rod is in town to help Dana paint her house so she can sell it and to help us get ready for the move to Calgary.

I might have to change my blog name to Calgary Gal who was in Winnipeg, got treated like shit and had to come home.... or something to that affect. I'll have to think about it.

A supplier called me today and he has been treated with respected by the President (ya right) so when I told him that I resigned he said he would help me look for a job in Calgary. Here's hoping he can help.

So all my Calgary buddies I need two things - 1. A job and 2. someplace to live. Apparently there are only about 600 homes for sale in Calgary so I might have to rent for a while.

I also think we need to have a HUGE WINNIPEG SUCKS party when I get back to the wonderful city of Calgary. All in favour?